2003-09-05 - 9:24 p.m.

After 12 years in my field, this new job is really not what I had planned for myself. I keep trying not to think of it as a step down or back, but it is really difficult because that is exactly what it is. I think my boss knows it too. I asked him if he needed anything before I left today and he said "Yeah, for you to come back on Monday".

When I interviewed I was told about two or three different jobs that were open. Funny how none of those descriptions fit what I'm doing. I don't want to talk about it too much because I will get mad (again). It's really something I'm going to need to take up with the guy that hired me.

I need a job. I appreciate the job. I'm trying to get over myself and just get through this and hope that it is just a stepping stone on the way to something better and more in line with the experience I have after all these years. Or, maybe it will be the place I stay until I'm done with school. Maybe doors in a different field will open for me at that time. Who knows?

Where I've Been. - What's Next.